My dad’s been on my last nerve today and he’s only been home for about 30 minutes. Get me out of this house.

Today I’m going to visit my high school and the Environmental Club because I miss my club like crazy and have been dying to see them ever since I got home from college. I’m so psyched and I never thought I’d say that when it comes to visiting that school but I get to see the people I really do miss and that’s all that matters :)

This is just a pointless rant that probably no one will care about but I just need to type my feelings away. I used to be able to do that all the time and now I just sit on my dash mindlessly reblogging pictures and this was so supposed to be my escape so hello thoughts, let’s spill onto my blog and out of my head. 

I just want to be back at school. Everything has literally gone to shit at home. There have been so many problems with my house and my mom’s throwing in the towel and wanting to move. Although I don’t like this town or the people here anyway, it would kinda be weird leaving it. I know I’ll be at school most of the time anyway but it’s just weird to think about a new town. I feel no attachment to this house anyway, even if it has been almost 14 years that I’ve lived here. The problems with the house have caused issues from the moment we entered it and I know it’s put a toll on my parents so maybe this is a good thing.. Even though my parents wanted to move to Florida when my dad retires in 4 years anyway…

I’m also literally counting down the days until basically anything important. Ocean City vacation with people I haven’t hung out with since high school ended (that should be interesting..), when my job at the summer camp actually starts so I can make some cash to visit my boyfriend and go on mini vacations on the weekends, and when I get back to school so I can be with my friends again because I’m missing them more than anything. I wish the days would go faster so I can get on track with the summer I’ve been waiting for already. 

I’ve also been trying to get on a health kick and hit the gym. Finally got  a membership and I’m going to have my body back before school starts again, I’m determined. As a present to myself for getting my body back, I might get my belly button pierced! We’ll see haha

I think I’m also putting a halt on my tattoos for a bit because I seriously thought about how in the future I don’t want tattoos peaking out in wedding pictures.. I’ll just go nuts with tats afterwards hehe :) with yaknow, minor exceptions.. because I might get impatient and get other ones that are easy to hide under a wedding gown. merp.

And I’ve also been a lot happier lately. I’m really glad I can finally say that, and I hope I continue to be happy because I love this feeling. Happy to be happy :) 

Seeing how you’re living life without me just fine kinda makes my heart sink down inside. I didn’t know it was so easy to forget our friendship, considering every day I still think of it. I guess I’ll never know what went wrong.